Hi,
Today i had a pretty long day, went shopping with mum in the morning, shopped at Cotton On, and ate at Anchorpoint and walked around IKEA Alexandra. Followed by choir practice at 3.30pm, then mass at 6pm, and then choir practice again till 10pm. However, i had my low-esteem acting up again. I cannot stand it when i try working so hard, just to improve my voice, no one seems to notice it. I admit that when my voice is not warmed up, i sound horrible. Today, there was Daniel, Ryan, |A| and I, we had to sing a piece. I actually thought it was just me and Daniel, however it became us four. But that was okay, okay until, Darren told us to try who gets to enter the first part, solo, |A| sang, then me. Darren wasn't really happy with me starting, so |A| took the part. I had to come in WITH her at the second sentence. I don't know why, but after all my years in GII, i have to deal with this issue...........

I have this strong feeling that |A| doesn't like me, maybe because of my low-esteem character. But i feel that THAT'S ME, NO one can change me except MYSELF. And i'm ALREADY trying to change, why can't she see that? BEAR WITH IT MAN. I still think she despise me. My mother thinks it's out of jealousy, but what the hell, seriously. I don't know about this, but i just hate the way she's treating me now. My whole GII friends, went out after choir practice, and they didn't even bother to invite me?! C'mon man, i'm not a small kid, if they don't like me, they should just say it in my face right? I prefer direct people please? Anyway I can't stand her character anymore, it seriously sickens me. She's such a two-face Bitch, I SWEAR. UGH. My life in GII sucks because of her. I have to tolerate ALL OF THESE because of her. I should be the one PISSED. I didn't get the SOLO part, SHE DID. I only get the speak out a song, when she gets to sing the first part, which i wanted. I seriously don't know how am i gonna go out to the working life, when all these just pisses me off. If she wanna compete with me, i don't really want to care. Cos i've joint choir not to compete, but to sing and praise God. I don't wanna leave choir, just because of her. PLEASE. Who does she think she is. She calls herself, PRINCESS |A|, who loves and adores HELLO KITTY. WTF. She can just go & fuck herself for all i care. Everyone thinks she is SO great, she brainwashes them, to hate me and don't care about me. But i seriously don't care. I wish that she will have some thing SO important that she won't have time for CHOIR. FML. or maybe FHL(Fuck Her Life). FO BITCH. I can't believe i bothered to ask you HOW WAS YOUR TRIP & WHERE DID YOU GO. All SHE replied was I WENT TO CHINA FULL STOP. [RUDE BITCH] Don't make me curse you!

I know you despise me, and this makes me HATE you cos i've seen your true colours BITCH.
I won't stop my passion, just because of YOU, you think you're so great huh, why join some lame church choir, go to some company & produce your own album.

I have nightmares, because of YOU. You should know WHO YOU ARE.

I wish i can sleep peacefully.
CRANKTHAT.

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