Melted by roses, swinging with a cat.
Buried with sadness, die with that.
Hi, i am Lisabeth and i like wilted roses that represents my heart.
I am just like this wilted rose, as liveless and its like so meaningless.
Came to Earth without a purpose on the 8th November 1993.
I feel as though Im alone in this world right now. I feel so neglected, so hurt by everyone's happiness. I don't know why am i feeling this way, it makes me really emotional & sensitive. After what i went through, i am still not strong enough to pull myself up. I feel terrible about my mental well-being. I feel as though no one cares about my feelings. why? My parents think they know everything, they only care for what benefits them, and not mine. My family members just looks down on me, I'm a looser. I can't even get myself a earpiece that has been broken a week ago. It's all because my parents said, "NO" so what does this make me? A controlled toy machine? I have feelings too okay. Why doesn't people care about how i feel as a human being and as a person? Does the word like GROUNDED, makes me any better? Why do they say it as though they like it? Why don't they consider how I feel when I'm grounded? Being an only child, stuck at home, facing the four walls, just surviving with her laptop and phone, makes life any better? It doesn't, you know? My whole social circle is dying, I've lost contact with my best friend, whose in HK, and another best friend who is just asking me to pay her back, what i owe. Ugh. Why does my life feel so bitchy? I'm not trying to act pathetic and all, just think about this, you being in this situation, won't you get frustrated & pissed? My mother is just too busy for being, neglecting me, just because of her "stress" at work. My father just complains and scolds every living creature around him. I'm sick & tired of my life now, i swear. It's either i'm at home or at grandmother's house, where can i go to? I can't go town, or anywhere, just because i'm GROUNDED. Nice way to start my Christmas holiday mood. I can't take it. Try being in my shoes and understand that. I can't understand myself, my parents even. Whenever i climb back up, people just try to break me down. How can i ever be so happy? My ex dumped me, i know i'm a lousy girlfriend. I'm a lousy everything okay. A sucka at love, studies, relationships, friendships and many more that i can't think of. Probably the whole world hates me now. I just feel like crumbling down into pieces, no point living, no one will probably miss me or come for my funeral anyways. I feel like crap. I feel for all those lost souls, unhappy souls out there. I feel for them... I just hope my life next year will change for the better. I just hope that my results will be a great and not a let-down one. (I need God to touch my soul right now)
