HEYOZ!
I'm finally blogging after.... How many months? HAHA. Idk. Everything has changed. O levels have ended already, and i'm getting back my freedom. However, I do feel quite "empty" about everything. I had this sudden "i-feel-like-studying" mood. It is so weird! Anyway, I do wish to be a different me, a nicer person. That will be my next year's resolution! I recently dyed my hair, to bronze brown. The hair colour of most of my KPOP idols (: I'm lovin' it! Heh. My birthday past super fast as that day i had two papers, sadly. But i still enjoyed it as i was brought to suntec for dinner :D So many things have happened in the month of Oct and early Nov. I'm too lazy to list everything down haha. Just know that i'm happy with my life now. My long suffering is long gone & i hope to enter into a new chapter in my life next year (: No matter what, i'm planning not to retake my O levels. So I will either go into SHATEC- hospitality & tourism, if i did really well, Temasek Poly- Early Childhood Education. I really do love kids and i love traveling so yupp. My life depends on the results day which is on 12 Jan 2011! AHH~ Oh wells, face reality, i found it easier than prelim however not much confidence though. Maybe it's just my low-esteem issues? haha. I really don't know. These past few days have been really boring. Everyone has their own plans, except for me maybe? I regret not planning earlier heh. This boringness is really killing me softly! But i'm looking forward to next week! Have Temasek Poly camp on 18-20 and Ngee Ann Poly camp on 22-24. can't wait! :D I'll have to look forward, don't look back! (: So no matter what, faith has to bring me far. People say i should relax now as it's well-deserved (: I guess they're right! Haha. However my dad is killing me. He thinks i can't go out everyday and i also can't use laptop too often or without limit. UGH. Unreasonable please? Shouldn't i deserve such freedom?
Hmmm. Anyway my best friend thinks she needs freedom, so she said she'll be "disappearing" from now till December. Idk what am i gonna do without her. She needs a break, from all her problems. When she told me that, i was telling her why & she shouldn't do this, she is just running away from her troubles. But she replied that i wasn't respecting her decision & instead hurting her more? What did i do? I'm trying to help her. I love her. For whoever she is, so why is she doing this to herself? Shouldn't best friend help and listen to each other's problems? I really am caught in a dilemma.. I always call her when i need someone to talk to, when i'm hurt. If she disappears, what am i gonna do? Who am i gonna talk and look for for all my problems? :( It's a lonely battle for both of us i guess. It will test our friendship. I do hope the outcome will be great..All i have to do now is just respect her decisions & i hope she is right about this.
About the love life of mine;
nothing. really boring. I'm waiting for Justin to come back from Australia. I somehow miss his presence. He'll be back on 26 Nov. So long more!! D: It is really testing our feelings for each other! I do like him. He likes me too, so we're just waiting for time? It's quite long till i see that day, i swear :( I miss him.....
There is also this person, who promised to drink & party with me, he didn't quite replied me before he left to Gentings, he also told me he's got a birthday gift for me. But why suddenly he just disappeared? Did i do anything? I admit i like him before, but i want things to be the same. I want him to know that i still wanna be his friend. I hope he's not mad at him or maybe i'm just thinking too much ( i really hope so is that way).
Wells, I'm bored. that's all i said, thanks for reading my long stories (:

Love ya'll.

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