Today was supposedly a fun day; but i didn't know why i didn't have fun. I was out with Darren, Bryan David & Laura Wong. It was kind of fun(: However, i didn't really enjoy myself. I think it was because there were awkward moments. Like Darren isn't really close to me any longer. He couldn't remember those friendship memories worth keeping. Saddening huh. After all these years. Well, my love life is a total screwed up :/ Can't take it already. I'm just awaiting for that happiness in my life. Hmmmm, yeah so today was potentially a good day but nope. I don't know why but seeing Laura talking to Bryan made me feel so... jealous. Do i really like him still? Should i just be moving on? Idk really. Nicholas on the other hand, is not really talking to me, idk why either. I think it's just me, but i'm really getting all sad and flustered up being too lonely. Gosh. I guess i'm in the period of suffering. I need to work super hard, get good grades, get into Temasek Polytechnic- Early Childhood Education which requires 12 points min. I so needa go there. I want my future to be bright, but all these distractions are killing meee. I can't get over my feelings and my happiness. Help me Lord! I want to suffer now and enjoy later, but why can't i get that into my head!!!! I so wanna fast forward my life. D:

♥the withered.

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