MY MOUTH HURTS :(((((
Can't take it already, painkillers ain't working, then howww! My surgery was done at 6.15pm roughly and it started at 5pm. It was soo painful that i was practically screaming in the room. D: Well, this is only ONE tooth! This coming Thurs would be another side & OH OH. I'll be in pain again! AISH. What can i dooo. My teeth all so problematic! Anyway Ive got MC from yesterday till Wednesday and another MC from Thursday to Sunday maybe? Worth the break! But my parents hardly understand the pain i'm going through, they think i'm like over-exaggerating! UGH. So saddd. I can't sing in Gll for awhile, will be MIA-ing for 3 weeks maybe? & all i can eat now is just SOFT FOOD. EWWW. Can't tahan. Been eating porridge last night, this morning oatmeal, and now porridge again. D: Luckily the doctor prescribed me some ANTACID, which is some gastric pills to last me this long and painful period. Hmmm, & guess what, i'm having my period, how sickening. I'm losing blood from my tooth and at the same time PERIOD. I'm going mad. I can't open my mouth too wide, SIX stitches still on my gum, i can't talk properly so shouting is like a NONO. Gosh, this is really tiring. I SWEAR. & O level Chinese listening compre is on TUESDAY & F&N practical O level Coursework B is on WEDNESDAY. (SHOOT ME!) WRONG THINGS HAPPENS AT WRONG TIME. & I wanna eat proper food, i wanna watch DESPICABLE ME :((( HOW. Just before my surgery, i've watched INCEPTION. DAMN Leonardo Di'Caprio is so awesome, same for Ken Watanabe :D Other than that, i'm in AGONY!

"Dear God,
Please help me.
Going through these pains are killing me softly. Help me see the goodness in life & not just about the pain and the pessimistic thoughts in my mind. I need the courage and strength, to guide me through these painful moments in life. I pray that despite of having no one to rely on, help me to stand on my own two feet, and always knowing that you are there for me. You are my savior, my friend my motivator, guide me and assist me, oh Lord. Into your hands, i comment my spirit.
Lead me to wherever or whatever you have planned for me, for i trust you with my heart, my mind & my soul. Though this path may not be as smooth, help me to know that you have your reasons. In whatever you do and say, help me to realize that you are doing this for my own good. Please also help me to not lose track of my goals in life and stay focus in my studies as this year is a rather crucial year.
Help me to stay persistent, also to have the perseverance and determination in life so that i can have a bright future. Do keep my family safe from danger and harm & let them know that i care and love them, even in times when there's doubt and conflicts at home. I really hope that whatever i am going through, help me overcome it and realize that i am not the only one who's going though such painful moments.
Come holy spirit, i need you. As i make this prayer through Christ our Lord.
Amen."

I needed this prayer to inspire myself that what i need now is God & i hope it'll work for some of us. In future when i look at this date of my blog, i want to thank God for always being there for me. I want him to know that it is HE who helped me through this moments. After all it takes two hands to clap. He is the other hand that makes me clap. Together, i am sure that everything will turn out fine.

For now, i would rather think of the good times. Tmr's the 18th, which probably marks the date to change my phone. I really hope that my parents would grant me the wish to change my phone as my phone is giving me problems. I really hope that they'll understand me and spare me time despite of their hectic work hours.

As for now, this blog seemed like the longest but i guess it was worthwhile.
THANKS FOR READING IF YOU DID. ♥

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