Finally had the urge to blog after months(: I just needed to write out my inner feelings, cos i can't sustain it any longer. Having being single since last August, made me feel desperate and empty. I am no longer myself that i was in 2009, everything changed. Idk why. I seemed to like people but they don't like me. It is kinda silly, but wells, told myself life has to move on. Without love too. Now i'm on my own, can't rely on anyone. Not even my parents i guess. I have to learn how to be independent. Being lonely isn't that great after all. Everyone kinda has their love given to others, but i have no one to share my feelings. Why? After all this year is O level year, i need to learn how to put away such feelings. But it's hard. I've lost the feeling of being in love. I can't get over my ex still, why? I can't stand it. Moreover i'm having my Chinese O level Oral exam, but my wisdom tooth needs to be extracted out, however it's stuck in my gum, causing gum infection. Which will lead me to have a minor surgery soon. & i'm scared. D: Anyway i think my depression is coming back, idk what to do now. I'm lost again. I need God. Where are you? :( No one is there to listen to me, everyone has their own problems.. What am i supposed to do now? Hide and bottle up my feelings again? Aish. That's my life. Having to born with such heart that is weak, a hole in my heart, went thru heart bypass, now what? Having to stand on my own two feet, with no one to trust on? Gosh. I didn't expect life to be such a "bliss".

Goodbye.

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