Melted by roses, swinging with a cat.
Buried with sadness, die with that.
Hi, i am Lisabeth and i like wilted roses that represents my heart.
I am just like this wilted rose, as liveless and its like so meaningless. Came to Earth without a purpose on the 8th November 1993.

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Thursday, October 29, 2009 7:39 PM
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I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE..

What did i do to deserve such cold shoulder from him? Did i ever did him wrong? Maybe i did, but i'm really sorry.. Or is it because of him telling his dad that made him turn his back to his friends? I don't know. I feel so mean, so bad. But if he's too down, all i wanna tell him is "CHEER UP! Do not regret your past, move on, strive on and i'm sure you can do it! I want you to be happy, as sadness makes a person ugly." And if he's ignoring me, i'm very sorry.. Can you tell me what's wrong? mmm. Anways, why must i always go thru such tormented periods with friends. I wanna be there for him, but why is he turning his back towards me too? Aren't i his friend? Maybe he thinks i'm an irritating idiot now. HMM. Sometimes i really don't understand things and i'm afraid to figure out the things that i do not understand. I'm afraid it'll hurt. I've tried my best being his friend, always being there for him, i've tried my best to comfort him and cheer him up, but why is he doing this to me now.. Life is never fair. Somethings are not meant to be shared or to be equivilant. I guess this is my fate. I'm meant to be isolated. All my friends are one by one vanishing and no longer contactable. Why is this so? I think i've poked too much into their business. Is it that hard to text a friend when you're down and troubled? I wonder what is he doing now, what is he thinking. Is he really that mean person? Is he really ignoring me or just isolating himself? I wish i could dig out those from his head. I guess tonight i won't be able to sleep if he doesn't contact be by tonight or stop contacting me anymore. I wish he could be there on my birthday. But i guess, this wish will never come true. All my wishes had never been true afterall. I wished for peace and happiness in my family, love, freedom, more friends, good marks for my exams and a life worth living for. But all i'm getting is, negative thoughts of rejection, and all the opposite of my wishes. Why is that so? I believe in fate, in destiny as that's what brings two or a whole family together after many years. When you want to find that someone, he'll/she'll have to be worth the wait. So now is, i'm hoping to meet that someone, who can fill me with love and happiness. As being the only child, is tormentful. I'm longing for laughter and peace in my family one day. Just running away from my past and finding for the new future. Thou it is hard, i trust myself that i can do it. Despite of the many fears i had in my past, i'm willing to face it hard and bravely. Just hoping to have my wishes come true. What more my granduncle is dying.. omg. what's life now?

I'm starting to miss you, without you texting me, who am i to spam anymore..?
Thanks for the friendship.


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