Melted by roses, swinging with a cat.
Buried with sadness, die with that.
Hi, i am Lisabeth and i like wilted roses that represents my heart.
I am just like this wilted rose, as liveless and its like so meaningless. Came to Earth without a purpose on the 8th November 1993.

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Friday, July 10, 2009 6:37 PM
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hello(:
i haven't blogged since a long time. I'm banned from using comp till after N levels. So yeahh. Sadded. Well, it benefits me too, for a person who didn't know the importance of exams yet. My life has been having its up and downs. I'm under medication for pills which keeps me calm. It's something like sleeping pills, but in a good way. Prevents me from having emotional disorder. Partly due to studies stress and family stress too. I just hope i can do well for N levels. It's really getting tough for me. I'm those kinda person who can't take stress too much. So it is really hard for me. Everytime i see the counsellor, i cry for the slightest sharing i can tell her about my life story. It was so hard for me to accept the fact that i'm fat, and stupid. It was so hard to accept my life being so rocky at times which was just getting better. I'm suffering deep down in my heart, though at times, i put a mask to hide it all away when i'm out with friends and others. I want my old self. I miss that old Lisabeth. My boyfriend said that i had to slim down, was there logic in that? Well, i'm a silly girl to say yes, because love plays an important role in my life. I can't bear to lose him. I'm in a situtation which make my love life more complicated. There' this girl who likes me, and i used to date her before. She wants me back. I don't know what to do.. She told me she accepted me long time ago already, what can i say? I love both. I'm hopeless. I made all this mess, it's my fault. Now i'm bulimic. Believe it or not? I can't seem to kick this habit, it's so painful. It's causing me to go into such trance of depression.. I pray to God almost everyday for his guidance as i'm in a state of hoplessness. And tmr is Hearts on Fire, CAN'T WAIT! and sunday it's magnificat! So i'll be more or less busy.

Gtg,
Lisabeth


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